When September Ends

The passing of time is a really peculiar thing. An event can feel both very recent and very distant all at once. Sometimes a song or a place or even a breeze at a certain temperature will throw me right back to a previous point in my life. It is usually a happy time but sometimes it's sad or just weird. The past is constructed though our own perspective on the current and the way we piece together what we think is the past.

I remember this girl in high school was grounded for a month or so because she got in trouble with the cops. The text of her aim buddy profile read "wake me up when September ends". These are Greenday lyrics. She simply meant that she was grounded through September and basically to contact her to hang out after that. Whenever I hear that song, which isn't often, it sends me back to the fall of 2005. Weird vulnerabilities, listening to things like Greenday, and a plethora of other activities associated with one's 15th year.

September has always been for some reason a strangely nostalgic month for me. It probably started in that 15th year with this hard reference point of that Greenday song. It may be that is when I started high school and that is when things started to seem like they mattered more. Maybe I can reference back to middle school September for the football games, but before that seasons just feel like "youth" nothing definitive apart from summer vacation.

Reflecting on Septembers past I wondered, what will forever mark September 2013 for me?

September kicked off in Dallas with a huge Labor Day party in Dallas at our friend Haley's ranch house.

My best friend turned 24, which means that very soon I will also turn 24. The idea of 24 almost feels old but it even more so seems incredibly young and that is beautiful. It is still the youngest of times. These years are mine.

I think I blinked twice and Caroline and I were already in Chile. I am still reminiscing on the whole experience  and will dedicate an entire post as soon as I am able to collect my thoughts and pictures and throw them down here.

Drake's new album NWTS dropped on September 24. The news of this album is by no means supposed to compete with the trips I have taken or the times I have spent with friends this month. It does though, serve to remind me how quickly time passes. I remember waiting in anticipation in October of 2011 for Take Care to drop. The weather was cool and I remember walking back from the business school to my apartment. I remember so clearly the anticipation for the album, the the holidays, for the nearing end of my senior year, etc.

I downloaded  ios7. A new iPhone operating system also seems highly inconsequential. My phone feels new now, so that makes me happy.

The Breaking Bad finale was last night. I haven't listened to much discussion on the episode, but I liked it. My questions were answered. Walt died like I knew he had to and he did it in the most caring way possible. He told Jesse to end it all but really gave Jesse the opportunity to walk away. I now think that the songs "Crystal Blue Persuasion" and "Baby Blue" will always sound a little different to me.